Lately, a few things have been battling to dominate my time. I recently signed up to me a Jamberry Consultant, and that has taken up quite a bit of my free time. As usual, Gigi takes up most of my time. I have also been working behind the scenes on this blog! I hoping some great things will be coming in the future! I really want to stick around for a while, and I hope to make it an enjoyable experience for all of my readers.
As a friend recently pointed out to me, I really need to get better at balancing my activities, so I do not continue to get overwhelmed. There have been so many changes in my life recently. I would love to list them all for you, but to be honest, I am not ready to make them all public yet. I do plan on sharing them all, as time goes on. Some are much more exciting than others.
I am actually really excited about this Jamberry endeavor! It is fun. I basically get to party with people and help everyone have pretty nails. It is definitely fun. I wanted to find something fun to do, to earn a little extra money, and I think I nailed it. Pun probably intended.
Gigi is growing at the speed of light. It is incredible to watch her grow. She is so smart and fun. She is also quite stubborn and independent. She makes me so proud on a daily basis. I am so blessed to be her Mama. I am seriously excited for what the future holds for her. I know I am biased, but I really think she will do great things.
So, I am mostly trying to figure out how to balance everything going on in my life, and to get better organized, so I can balance it all better. I used to be such an organized person. It is easy when it is just yourself. You factor in kids and family life, and it seems to be a much harder task. If you guys want to comment with tips on how to be organized, I would love you all forever. Though, I probably will anyway!
So, I did not want you guys to be stuck with just a boring update about life, so I decided to try to create a poem using my words.
I should have known better.
I should have been smarter.
I have been around the block before.
I should have known how this would go.
I should have made a list of reasons not to do it.
I should have nailed it on my wall.
I should have memorized it.
I should have pointed out the risks to myself.
I should have never let myself fall for you.
I should not have let thoughts of you dominate my mind.
What I should have done and what I did do, total opposites.
I let you in.
I let myself care.
I let my desire for you dominate my words and actions.
I let my need for you grow.
I let you become a part of my world.
I knew better.
I don't think I really cared.
I don't think I minded that I would get hurt.
I don't think it mattered that we could never last.
I think I wanted you so much, the consequences were worth it.
I immersed myself into being yours.
I dedicated myself to being what you wanted.
I knew your want could not possibly last.
I knew the day would come, when our union would end.
I did it all anyway.
I wanted you anyway.
I needed you anyways.
I cared for you anyway.
I let myself fall in love anyway.
I knew better, but I let you continue to permeate yourself into my very soul.
I let you in so deeply, and now you are gone.
All that remains in pain and memories.
I have no regrets.
I knew better and I still made the choices I made.
You were worth it.
The memories were worth it.
I would do it all over again, even knowing how badly it hurts.
I will forever cherish you.
I will forever remember you.
I will forever love you.
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