Sleep.

I don't get enough sleep. I'm the mom of a 9 month old. I guess that goes without saying. It is 11:06 pm and she is in her crib crying. I'm trying to stay strong. Since we moved, she doesn't sleep as well as before. In her defense, she has been through a lot this past month. I was hospitalized and away from her. We've moved. Poor girl. I wish I could wave a magic wand, and have her fully adjusted to the new house and sleeping in her own bed. I miss sleep. I'm sick. I'm exhausted. I love my baby girl. I know in the end, it will all be worth it. Right?!?

Update on the Bergham front.... way past due.

I'm truly sorry that it has been so long since I've posted updates. So very much has happened on the Bergham home front. I will give as many updates as I can think of.

*As of today, Weewee is one week away from being 10 months old. Insane right?!?

*We have moved into a new house. As I'm typing this, I'm surrounded by a chaotic Maze of boxes, bags, and plastic storage bins. Trying to fit the contents of a four bedroom house into a two bedroom house is NOT easy. Definitely worth it though. Our old landlords were awful. We lived in the house for an entire year. The did not do any of the promised repairs. None of them. It wasn't safe and that made me one stressed out mommy.

*Due to situations caused by the negligence of our old landlords, Faye and Carlissa no longer live with us. I'm heartbroken, but they're in the best place for them. Their new mommy and sister love them just as much as we do. They even have other fur brothers and sisters. They're happy, healthy, and loved. Plus, we get to visit!!! They're more spoiled than ever!!!

*Chad is alive and well. He is the most amazing man ever. I'm more in love with him ever. I just asked him for an update on his love for me... "Same as always". Considering all I've put him through recently, this is a good thing.

*Weewee weighs 19 lbs and is 30 inches long. She has 6 teeth. She can say: Mama, Dada, Doggy, Baba, Num num (I slightly regret calling food num num), Nana, doll. She waves. She claps. She crawls. She walks, while holding onto things. She stands with no support. She still seems to love green more than all other colors. She is super happy, sweet, and social. She dances. Her laugh is the most beautiful sound ever. She eats real food and baby food. She loves bananas. She loves chicken. She had her first (and hopefully last) earache. She never cried or got cranky. Had she not tugged her ears often, I never would've known she was sick. She is perfect. She recently went in a swing for the first time, and loved it. The one battle I have with her is keeping her nose clean. She absolutely hates having her nose cleaned/wiped. She loves showers and baths. She loves to watch people. She is very curious and alert. She has amazing focus. She is okay with a sippy cup, and is obsessed with straws. She hates shoes. She loves Cheerios. She enjoys car rides. She is madly in love with her big sister. The joy she gets when she sees her big sister is beautiful. She definitely loves Mama (me), but I think she'll be a Dada's girl.

*I was hospitalized for 5 days. Hardest days of my life. I was actually in the hospital on the day Weewee turned 9 months old. It killed me not getting to give her birthday loves. My blood thinners were off. I'd been sick for weeks, and hadn't been eating properly. The change in diet sent my levels sky high. I could've bled out from a paper cut. Not cool. It was making my brain loopy. My levels were so high, I should've stroked out. Plus, a new discovery is my heart isn't as healthy as it should be. Between the two issues, I blacked out. Ended up in the hospital with a high risk of a heart attack.  Scariest thing ever. I had to do tons of tests, including a stress test. I'm on new meds. I was stressed completely out. My health hasn't been great... I'm a new mom... Our landlords were awful, and I felt our home was unsafe... we had to give up our babies (Faye and Carlissa)... I'm on the other side of the country from 99.9% of my family/friends... Bills are awful... All these things were stressing me out, and making my fragile heart worse. We aren't exactly sure what compromised the condition of my heart. I just have to be careful, and avoid stress. I'm on new meds and I'm continuing to lose weight. Unfortunately, my back problem has gotten much worse. I really need surgery, but it is just too risky. Every treatment is risky. We've decided to attempt an epidural. Please pray it is successful. I'm terrified.  Our last attempt with meds wasn't successful. During labor, I wasn't allowed an epidural, because it is simply too risky. My docs are working on a blood thinner routine, that will hopefully make an epidural possible. It means I will be back on shots temporarily. If it can help with this chronic pain, and enable me to be a better mom, I'm willing to try it. At my heaviest, I was 497 lbs. I can happily say I'm down to 260 lbs. Unfortunately, I was healthier at 497 lbs, than I am now. I'm hoping that starts changing. I'm determined to be an amazing mom/stepmom and an amazing wife. I want to live a full life. I'm determined!

Okay. I think those are enough updates for now. I will do my best to keep you all updated on a more regular basis.

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My goal is to write an update blog ASAP. There are tons of updates. Tons. I've been slacking. I'm also in the process of writing a guest blog post. More on that later.

So so so many updates.

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