My words are:
discombobulated ~ family ~ return ~ without ~ race
They were submitted by: http://Bakinginatornado.com (Thanks, Karen, for the words!! I will do them justice in my Stable Layne post, promise!!)
So, for the past few months, I have been writing a story for you all, one post at a time, using my Use Your Words words. I have bad news and good news. I am a firm believer in family first, especially my Gigi. I have actually started a Use Your Words post, with it being an installment of the Stable Layne series. Unfortunately, Gigi is sick today. Her ear is bugging her badly. So badly, I may be taking her to the emergency room, after I schedule this to post tomorrow morning. So, I am not going to be able to post my Stable Layne post.
Without being able to read it through several times, then read all the posts through, to make sure it makes sense, and isn't a discombobulating mess of words, I just do not feel comfortable posting it. So, rather than race to finish it in time, and put out a post I am not proud of, I have decided to post a different post. I will return to my already in progress post, as soon as things calm down with Gigi's ear, and post my Stable Layne post (using these words) at a later time. Once I do that, I will update this post with a link to it.
So, I was faced with trying to decide how to quickly use my words. Honestly, when I first read my words, the Stable Layne post began to form in my head, so I knew from moment one, that was how I was going to use them. I really did not have a plan B. One of my absolutely most comfortable forms of writing, is poetry. So, I decided to go that route with my words. I do apologize. I know I already gave you all poetry on Wednesday. I hope you don't mind, but poetry is definitely my comfort zone.
Poem (Return to Me):
I am lying here, unable to stop my thoughts from running this race.
They are going a million miles a minutes.
I am thinking of you. I am thinking of family. I am thinking of us.
My thoughts have me discombobulated and restless.
All I really want is you to be here with me.
Yet I am alone, without you.
I do not know if you will ever return to my side.
I do not know if you are gone forever.
I do not know if we are truly over.
I wish you would tell me.
I wish you would let me know your intentions.
I know you do not approve of my choices.
I can respect that you feel I should have chosen differently.
I had to do what was best for myself. I had to do what I thought was best for us.
I hope one day you can accept that, and come back into my life.
The way it was before, not the way it is now.
I want more. So much more.
I want us to be the old us.
Not this new us, a mere shadow of the old us.
I miss you.
I miss you so much.
Please, please, return to me.
Okay. There you have it. I hope it will suffice, until I get my Stable Layne posted!! We have an appointment for 2 pm, with Gigi's doctor, but since it seems to be getting worse, we will be trying to get her in first thing, with either her doctor, or the ENT specialist who put her tubes in. As some of you may know, if you have followed me on my Facebook page and blog for a while, Gigi has struggled with ear issues. Getting tubes put in, December 2015 has really helped. Unfortunately, something is obviously wrong now. So, I am hoping it can get fixed immediately. Seeing your baby sick, is never cool.
I am sorry to have disappointed y'all!! I will make it up to you!!
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