Friday, May 29, 2015

Flip the Flop #FunnyFriday May 2015

Today’s post is this month’s Funny Friday, a regular feature published on the last Friday of every month. Funny Friday is a collaborative project. Each month one of the participants submits a picture, then we all write 5 captions or thoughts inspired by that month’s picture. Links to the other bloggers’ posts are below, click on them and see what they've come up with. I hope we bring a smile to your face as you start your weekend.

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Here’s today’s picture. It was submitted by the lovely Spatulas on Parade  ( .

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1. Nobody ever saw Jonah again.

2. Sharks never attack, they said. A walk on the beach will be lovely, they said.

3. That awkward moment when your invisibility serum goes wonky.

4. When there was only one set of footprints....

5. Not necessarily a caption... I am a LOVER of flip flops. I wear flip flops all year long. Looking at this makes me so sad. I would be so devastated if I lost one of mine. Mine have names. Yes, judge if you will, but I love my flip flops. 

Click on the links below and let some other bloggers make you smile:

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Coming As I Am....

As many of you know, I recently lost my cousin MattMatt. His death hit me hard. It rocked me to my core. It has been weeks, and I have not recovered yet. I do not think I will ever fully recover. I think I will feel the impact of his loss for the rest of my life. That is fine with me. He was my MattMatt. I loved him. He was part of me. His blood was my blood. I should miss him. I find comfort in the knowledge that he will forever be with me, in my heart, in my memories.

As you may have noticed, I took a hiatus after MattMatt died. In reality, I am still on hiatus. I am just in turtle mode- peeking out of my shell and then pulling my head back in. I have just really needed time. Time to think. Time to feel. Time to process. Time to heal. Time to breathe.

So much has happened in my life the past few years. Sometimes it does not even feel real. Sometimes it feels like an insanely long dream. Sometimes I sit back and think about everything that has happened, and I wonder how I have managed to stay sane. Sometimes I question if I am actually sane. I have had people ask me how I have dealt with it all, and the answer is simple, you do what you have to do. I have to deal with it, so that is what I do. What other option is there? Life happens, and you deal.

Day by day, I grow. Year by year, I evolve. It is just the natural order of things. I am a different person today, than I was ten years ago. Really, I am different than I was even just a year ago. Life happens and I learn. Life happens and I grow. Life happens and I progress. It is what we all do. I have done a great deal of learning, growing, and evolving recently.

MattMatt dying really sparked a change in my soul. He was so young. I am so young. I have faced death in recent years, but I never really looked it in the eye. I have never really processed it at depth. I have accepted that I may die. I have made arrangements, written letters, made phone calls. I have gone through the motions. Having my baby cousin die, really made me stare death in the eye. Made me realize going through the motions, is not the same as really understanding it.

This time in my life has caused me to really analyze myself. To really question who I am, what I stand for, who I want to be, and how I wish to be remembered. I am known as a very open and honest person. I pride myself in that. I have been lied to far too much, and know the pain and anguish caused by it, to ever do that to anyone else.

That being said, in some ways I am not as honest as I may seem. I do hold certain things in. I don't think this is necessarily bad, as I think we should have parts of ourselves only shared with certain people. I do feel like some of the things I have kept inside, do not necessarily need to be, or may not need to continue to be.

With that in mind, I would like each and every one of you to know, that I am not nor have I ever been a heterosexual female. 

I support gay rights so strongly, not just because it is the right thing to do (in my opinion), but because they apply to me. It is because I can fully understand why it is so fundamentally important for everyone to have fair and equal rights, not just a select few that fall into particular categories.

I have been asked many times over the years why I support gay rights so strongly... Some have even said "it isn't like it effects you".... and finally, for once, I am saying that it does. It very much does.

As life would have it, I met and fell madly in love with Chad. I am happy with him. I love him. He loves me. We are not married, and we may never marry, or we may marry next week. Married or unmarried, we still love each other completely. I know that considering what I've just said about my sexuality, this is difficult for you to reconcile. Chad and I and our child are not a traditional family, but we are a happy loving family. You do not have to understand that. Only Chad and I do.

Today, May 17th, is International Day Against Homophobia, Transphobia, and Biphobia. I chose today to post this, to show solidarity with anyone that does not fall into the neat category of "normal". We are all unique, and we all deserve respect.

I am the same person now, that I was ten minutes ago. The difference is, now you know something about me, that you didn't know before. Does that change who I am? No. If it changes who you see me as, that is a reflection on you, not me. I really hope that nothing changes, but I fear things might. That is sad. That needs to change. Nobody should ever live in fear of being judged, based on something as simple as whom they choose to love. 

As a society, we need to really change some things. Judgement and hate reign far too supreme. We need to start embracing love and acceptance. It is when those reign supreme, we will truly be able to begin flourishing as a society, together. Together we will rise, divided we will fall.

I hope everyone that reads this will choose to accept me as I am. If you can't, I am sorry for you. 

Just know I accept you all for the wonderful people you are. I will never judge you. I will never hate you. In my little area of the world, love and acceptance will always reign supreme.

A special thanks to Karen, from Baking in a Tornado, for helping me sort my thoughts and sharing her words with me. 

Friday, May 15, 2015

Candle in the mirror. #UseYourWords May 2015

Today’s post is a writing challenge. This is how it works: participating bloggers picked 4 – 6 words or short phrases for someone else to craft into a post. All words must be used at least once and all the posts will be unique as each writer has received their own set of words. That’s the challenge, here’s a fun twist; no one who’s participating knows who got their words and in what direction the writer will take them. Until now.

My words are:
mirror ~ book ~ ink ~ candle ~ fragrance

They were submitted by: Stacy Sews and Schools   
(Thank you for such wonderful words, Stacy! <3)

I had a bit of writer's block while trying to work on this post, and then an idea hit me. For whatever reason, I thought of twenty questions, but with only five questions (one for each word). So, I recruited a friend to help my idea come to fruition. I gave them the list of the words, and had them come up with five questions, one for each word, and then I answered them. Yes, it was the easy way out, but I thought it to still be a bit creative. 

So here are the questions and answers. Thank you to my friend for his help! I owe you big time, HUZ! <3

1. Do you remember the first time you saw Snow White? (Mirror)

I wasn't like many kids.  Most children movies,  I did not watch until I was much older. Most I was a teenager for. Some, I was in my late 20s. I watched Snow White when I was 15 or 16. I liked it.  What led to me watching it,  was being cast in a high school production. Prior to that,  I only knew about "Mirror, Mirror". To this day, it is one of my favorite kid movies. 

2. If you were going to write a book, what would it be about? (Book) 

I am writing a book.  It's a romance. Similar to Fifty Shades of Grey, but better. 

3. What was your first tattoo? (Ink) 

I gave myself a purple heart, for surviving life.  I was 21. It's done in purple and black ink.  It is a purple heart with a black tribal band, and it is on my chest.

4. Tell us a candlelit memory. (Candle) 

I don't have any candlelit dinner memories.  I do remember the first time I lit a candle. I was a teen.  I was proud. I was 15, I think.  I lit a prayer candle at church. I was terrified of matches, but I faced my fear. I'm still not a fan of matches, but will use them when I must. 

5. What cologne/perfume has a strong association for you? (Fragrance)

My favorite fragrance in the world is Love Spell by Victoria's Secret. A girl in one of my college English classes wore it.  I literally interrupted class to inquire who the wonderful scent was coming from.  I went and bought it that weekend.  That was ten years ago. I still love it. 

Take Two:

Laying in bed, book in hand, candle lit
the fragrance of lavender filling the air
looking across the room
I catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror
tear stained cheeks
messy hair
blotchy skin
why do I do this to myself?
Why do I let you do this to me?
It's not like we have some contract
signed in ink
I can walk away
I can leave
Me staying is not required.
I am free to go.
So why don't I feel free to leave?
Why do I feel so trapped in your web
Your meticulously weaved web
of lust and desires and need
I am like a fly
and you are the spider that trapped me
and you are slowly eating me
bite by bite
torturing me
eating just enough to satiate yourself
but not enough to end my misery
Only I am not a fly
and there is no web
I am a woman
my legs work
I can walk
Walk so far away from you
and this chaotic struggle
you subject me to
Love shouldn't be like this
Friendship shouldn't be like this
With you it is

Links to the other “Use Your Words” posts:
Baking In A Tornado                                                         
Spatulas on Parade                        
The Bergham's Life Chronicles                     
The Momisodes                                        
Stacy Sews and Schools               
Sparkly Poetic Weirdo                            
Eileen's Perpetually Busy                     

Friday, May 8, 2015

Coming Undone May 2015 #SecretSubjectSwap

Welcome to a Secret Subject Swap. This week, sixteen brave bloggers picked a secret subject for someone else and were assigned a secret subject to interpret in their own style. Today we are all simultaneously divulging our topics and submitting our posts. 

My “Secret Subject” is:
Sell me your favorite book.
It was submitted by the wonderful lady behind  The Momisodes  
(Thank you for such a fabulous subject! Though it was a tough one!)

My favorite book. What?! I thought we were not supposed to pick favorites. Oh wait. Is that just kids? Well, in some ways books were my kids for many years. I love books with a depth that reaches my soul. I am a reader. I am a writer. Books are just sort of part of me. So, picking a favorite is not as easy as it would seem. "Where the Red Fern Grows", "She's Come Undone", "Wuthering Heights", "Yesterday I Cried", so on and so on. Gosh. Pick one and sell it to you.

"She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb. It's on Oprah's Book Club. Sold? No? Oy.

The reason I am a writer, the reason I do this, the reason I don't stop doing this... "She's Come Undone" by Wally Lamb. This book is the reason I started writing my words and thoughts down. It is the reason I started writing poetry. It is the reason I have written the novels, I have written (and kept hidden). Whenever I get the nerve to one day submit some of my work for publishing, will be this book. The reason I face life's difficulties and just keep going, is this book.

This book has defined who I am on many levels. I read it when I was fourteen. During one of the hardest years of my life. It spoke to me on so many levels, and really helped me come out of my shell. It helped me to face my demons and move on. It enabled me to cope with the tragedies that had been weighing me down. It helped me to blossom as a person. It did so much for me. It helped me heal, at a time I needed to heal. 

It is truly a book that I feel everyone should read. Once, twice, twenty times. It is a difficult read in some ways. Wally does not sugarcoat it. He just tells the story bluntly and perfectly. He touches on some really tough subjects. There is rape, obesity, a broken family, suicide attempts, abortion... There is a lot of depth to it. There is also beauty and hope in the darkness. It is really just a well written book. 

I have dealt with a lot in my lifetime. I think my life mirrors this book more than I would like it to, but I am okay with that. Life cannot be all roses, there needs to be thorns, so we can appreciate the roses. It truly is a wonderful book. Yes, it has a darkness to it, but as with life, the darkness is accompanied by light. 

If you have not already read it, I strongly recommend it. If you have read it, what do you think about it? Everyone I have ever discussed it with, has loved it. 

If you do decided to read it (because I sold it so well), please let me know your thoughts, once you've read it! I have decided that I am going to read it. Again. It is so worthy of reading several times. 

Here are links to all the sites now featuring Secret Subject Swap posts.  Sit back, grab a cup, and check them all out. See you there: